It's a damn cold night...

Forgiving is love's toughest work, and love's biggest risk. To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that the prisoner was you.
いつか失ってしまうのかな。薄れてゆく笑顔と君を守りたい。
-- D-technolife

If fate is a wheel, then we are the sand that is crushed between the cogs.

Don't judge a life by one difficult season.

独自并不代表孤单，在一群人中狂笑着有时更寂寞。
-- 吴庆康

At times it may not even seem rational, but the heart has a computing ability that is far more accurate and far more precise than anything within the limits of rational thought.
-- Deepak Chopra
于是我让孤独更孤独，有一种不是悲伤的悲伤，才是刻骨铭心的悲伤。
Grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console; to be understood as to understand; to be loved as to love.
-- St Francis.
People's actions are influenced by their expectations. People respond not just to what is happening now, but to what they anticipate will happen in the future.
-- Sloman
不管你会不会忘了我，我只想告诉你一个秘密。
--《不能说的·秘密》

Every action generates a force of energy that returns to us in like kind.
-- Deepak Chopra

The furthest distance in the world is not between life and death but when I stand in front of you yet you don't know that I love you.
-- Tagore
Do do not worry about tomorrow; it will have enough worries of its own. There is no need to add to the troubles each day brings.
-- Matt 6:34

まだ不器用に笑うね まだ悲しみが似合うから
キミに降る痛みを 拭ってあげたい すべて I for you
-- I For You

the optimistic pessimist

supposedly an adult, she thinks like an adult (too much, if you ask me). deep inside, she is nothing but a little girl, with her little lofty dreams and ideals. and oops, she is breaking them, one by one.
more often than not, she is just an angsty emo kid.

she is only but
a passer-by,

an onlooker,
a walking shadow.

and this girl can't stop writing.

she stalks

|| cyn bea bao zou mel ||
|| joan weepz ||
|| blockc yeanching lehia kexi zhenlin horace alvin dina sandra becca tzehee ||
|| cruzteng peifen dasmondkoh ||
|| xiaozhu xiaogui sunxiezhi ashin kangyong ||
|| derrick jinglun stefsun natho lawrencewong ||
|| feliciachin joannepeh jeanetteaw sharonaw ||
|| xiaohan hyr chimkang mingde dannyyeo ||
|| xuyunling alvinology mrbrown esther ||
|| drbondar psychdigest ||
|| kfdrawing iwrotethisforyou thingsweforget ||

After all, what is in the past but what we choose to remember? They can choose not to hide it, to take what's broken, to feel the pain and know that it will heal. They know where happiness lies, not in a cave or a country, but in love and the freedom to give and take what has been there all along.
-- The Bonesetter's Daughter

she watches on

Others desire to experience the blessedness of giving, but we often frustrate them by refusing their help.


“你有心事吗？”
“或许有一天，我会告诉你吧。”
--《不能说的·秘密》

she holds on

　Memories were also a way of looking in a mirror, but it was a jagged mirror of broken glass, one that cast imperfect reflections. Like shards, these memories drew blood.

February 2003 March 2003 April 2003 May 2003 June 2003 July 2003 September 2003 October 2003 November 2003 December 2003 January 2004 February 2004 March 2004 April 2004 May 2004 June 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 October 2011 November 2011 January 2012 February 2012 April 2012 May 2012 June 2012 July 2012 August 2012 October 2012 November 2012 December 2012 January 2013 February 2013 March 2013 April 2013 May 2013 June 2013 July 2013 August 2013 September 2013 October 2013 November 2013 December 2013 January 2014 February 2014 March 2014 April 2014 May 2014 June 2014 July 2014 August 2014 September 2014 October 2014 November 2014 December 2014 January 2015 February 2015 March 2015 April 2015 May 2015 July 2015 September 2015 October 2015 November 2015 December 2015 January 2016 February 2016 March 2016 April 2016 May 2016 June 2016 August 2016 September 2016 October 2016 November 2016 December 2016 January 2017 February 2017 April 2017 May 2017 August 2017 September 2017 October 2017 November 2017 December 2017 January 2018 February 2018 April 2018 June 2018 July 2018 September 2018 October 2018 November 2018 December 2018 February 2019 April 2019 June 2019 August 2019 October 2019 December 2019 January 2020 February 2020 March 2020 April 2020 May 2020 July 2020 November 2020 February 2021 April 2021 July 2021 September 2021 November 2021 March 2022

she never gets

永远不会交的功课 || 永远不会实现的愿望

|| you ||

Responsibility means not blaming anyone or anything for your situation, including yourself... Whatever relationships you have attracted in your life at this moment are precisely the ones you need in your life at this moment. There is a hidden meaning behind all events, and this hidden meaning is serving your own evolution.
-- Deepak Chopra

she thanks

Designer : Wei Jun
Brushes : Deviantart - Spy Glass

I don't know, I don't know. Sometimes I feel like I'm a pair of eyes and ears, and I'm just trying to stay safe and make sense of what's happening. I know what to avoid, what to worry about.I'm like those kids who live with gunfire going off around them. I don't want pain. I don't want to die. I don't want to see other people around me die. But I don't have anything left inside me to figure out where I fit in or what I want. If I want anything, it's to know what's possible to want.
-- The Bonesetter's Daughter

Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
Hebrews 11:1

Monday, February 27, 2012
withers away @ 7:55 pm

说不出的祝福，只能在这里表达了。朋友，生日快乐。

It's something Mystical

Sunday, February 26, 2012
withers away @ 1:21 am

一定要趁今晚记录下这份感动，因为过了就没有了。虽然我觉得，这种感觉应该会久久都散不去。五月天，我终于去了。
赶到现场，应该是错过了半首歌吧。找不到自己的位子，问了很多很多ushers，终于找到对的那行，也没管是否是正确的座位，一屁股坐在最外面的位子。刚开始时有点怪怪的，因为那一区属于restricted view，不是所有的位子都是满的，有一半的人竟然是坐在那里一动也不动地听歌。有别于杰伦的，因为当时我坐Cat 1，所以从头站到尾、唱到尾、喊到尾。这次我坐在大荧幕下面，只看得到五月天的侧面，旁边的人都不动我很难动耶，况且很怕站起来就挡着后面的人。还有，坐我旁边那一对，连跟节奏摇摆都没有。所以到头来我在位子上摆动。
但是，不久后那对跑掉了。我坐了一下发现他们应该不会回来，就移了进去。当我又在发现后面的人已经站起来了过后，就没有什么阻挡我享受演唱会了。其实坐在那里，距离很近很近，只是看不到大荧幕，看不到正面，音响也很大，甚至feedback很多，但是都无所谓，因为五月天唱歌的诚意爆满。他们是真的爱我们，想唱歌给我们听的。阿信很会说感性的话（所以才写得出那么好的歌词），其他团员也很会哈啦搞笑。
唱《倔强》的时候举的歌词牌；唱《突然好想你》的时候灯光一暗，只有阿信在台上，配着简单的键盘，只有他和我们的声音，一股涌上的热泪盈眶；唱《知足》的时候阿信要我们用手机营造星空；唱《离开地球表面》的时候的全场跳动，我觉得自己就快跌死还是要跳。一切的一切，都化成美好的回忆，记在心里。
唱《憨人》的时候，因为结尾是一连串的“啦”，我们跟着一起，当鼓声、贝斯、吉他都静下来，我们继续“啦”，阿信开始说话，我们的“啦”就成了背景音乐。他说，以前还在念书时来了个新加坡的交流生，他是第一个他见过的新加坡人，所以对他来说他像个外星人。但是到最后，他发现他们是同一种人。因为当他在用闽南语骂粗话的时候，他也听得懂！全场爆笑。然后他说，所以他们不怕在这里唱闽南语歌，因为我们都听得懂！说实话，我到近两年才听过他们的闽南语歌，有点迟，但是总好过没有！
Encore两次，如果不是已经到午夜十二点了，唱了四个小时了，相信我们还会来个第三次吧。第二次，阿信他们有点词穷了，他说，其实他们也没什么好说了，想唱的也唱完了，但是就是不想下去，不想离开，不想放我们回家。他不是在说场面话，他是真的很享受那个时候。因为我坐的位置看得到整个体育场，所以我开始了解那种歌手一直说的感动。摇滚区的人开始喊：“不回家！不回家！”，我当时也还真的是不想走。我很想对阿信说，我们就这样唱下去吧，唱到天亮吧。我好爱五月天的词，五月天的歌，五月天的这五个仍然对音乐的那种执着热爱。
可能有人会说，阿信的声音其实不很好了，高音破了之类的。但是，我觉得听演唱会是听一种气氛多过于声音的完美。还有，那更是在短短几个小时内，重新看见自己，看见不同阶段的自己，唱着不同的歌的情况。杰伦的歌是如此，五月天的也是如此，它们让我的眼前出现了不一样的画面，让我回忆起很多很多。记录故事、重温故事，可能才是演唱会真正的意义吧。
五月天带来的感动，五月天带来的热泪盈眶，我想，我希望，我愿意，下一起再来体会一回。

It's something Mystical